Here is another day or month (I have forgotten how long) that I have been gone since I have written anything in this journal. I am in the middle of writing three novels and I can't seem to come in here and write something in here.....lol. I am pouring myself into work and that isn't anything like me. I am usually looking for the humor in things.... Not anymore. I'm not sure what exactly is happening but it looks as if I am losing friends about as fast as I make new ones. I am sure everybody is busy with their own life but it does bother me as I always have people around me (something I really find I need) and now it seems to be thinning out.

I have been given a proposition from a woman and I do not want to accept her askance. I know it can never work. I also am looking for a very special lady but what I am looking for may be as hard to find as the right numbers to win the $350 million lottery. I 'll probably put my wish list for what I am looking for in a woman later. Just see how many "answers" I may get out here. I do hope people will answer these messages. I am going to put another message in today right behind this one and hope to see somebody say something about it. 

I am going to just take today easy and play games. Do a little bit of fighting,killing,racing, and doing all the things that society says isn't a good thing. lol. Hope all have a good day too.