Well, it's another day, and fortunately I have lucked out and get paid for taking the day off work. I sit here trying to post something intelligent and all I seem to get out is blah-blah-blah. So I guess today I will be doing great babbling.

I got to sleep late and as if my frineds knew I was home trying to sleep they kept calling asking the same question...."Are you ok?"   Of course I am ok. I am trying to sleep....lol.  Then they ask the predictable ... "Do you want me to hang up?"  If I say yes they get their feelings hurt. If I say no then they want to visit. But only long enough to make sure I am now awake..... lol. So, what would you all do in this case?

WOW!!  Yesterday I had a memory come back. It was a good memory too. Ever since the truck wreck I lost all my memories from about three years ago back to childhood. Doctors say I may never get them back. But thats ok really. I am enjoying making new memories. I make new friends even though I may already be friends with that person for a long time. Think about that one for a moment...lol.

Right now I am trying to find a lady who would like to spend time with me. Somebody who just enjoys the moment sometimes and whatever we may do. I have mountains around where I live and they are great to go have a picnic in. I also have the "White Sands Monument"  that makes a great place to visit. Then I live about ninety miles away from El Paso and seventy miles away from Las Cruces. Both places have plenty of places to go dancing or really nice restaurants. I figure it's time for me to settle down a little bit and start looking for a lady to spend time with. We'll see.......

I am going to go looking around the net right now and see what I can find. I love a good joke. I guess that is what I will do.....

Laters.....

Sabin 

This is a topic that has special meaning to me as I believe there are so many having trouble with this. I think there are those that have been given "gifts" and find themselves concerned and/or maybe even frightened by them. I hope when you read the following you will then be assured that you are not crazy and you will be able to act on these gifts better and with a clearer mind than before........
 

It is a very difficult position to explain the difference between reality and that "place" that is still controlled by the mind but manifests itself in spirit. It is an extremely fine line (boundary) that once stepped over is so amazing. It brings a whole new world of possibilities. This is where you can control time itself. In this side you may do all the things you can't do in reality. You aren't crazy and this is not a dream. Reality- the place that is mundane and all things are set in rules. Reality-- a place where we as a society has said that you can not be who and what you wish to be unless it (society) gives you permission to be. Reality is where the physical body requires sustanance and jobs and the workings of our lives that make us who we are in society. I am sorry that I sound so harsh on society but it is so hindered by its' own spirit of selfishness of closed off spirit-hood. In reality we are forced to heed the laws of both nature and of mankind. I guess because of my love for life and all peoples; I want so much more for them than to drudge their lives away in a forever pathway of working until you cannot work anymore and having to listen to all of those negative people all around. I wish I could just once give them  a wake up call. I think that is my problem---negativeness. The world is full of it. Listen to those around you sometime. The world is full of ... I can't .....you can't.... better not.....I wouldn't.... you shouldn't..... why do that.... after all we wouldn't do that so if you want to be one of us you can't either. Is it any wonder that our entire world is full of people with all kinds of sickness and mental illness?
This is what I am trying to get rid of in my "Dragons Universe" community. All of the negatives and adhere more to the positives. I hear from people "they can't" I ask them one thing "who said they can't". Who can say it can not be done until it is tried? Life is so beautiful around us and most of the time we miss it. Look at everything as you go through life. Smell the roses, smell the air... smell the way every spirit has its own smell. Sense everything around you and widen your perspective until the whole thing is your world. Remember this if you don't remember anything else..... In this life we walk our own paths but never froget to live. Always keep the flowers or animals or feel the heartbeat of life.  It can be done. 

Now I have talked mostly about the reality side, so allow me to talk about the other-side. When you meditate, do you feel a pull somewhere? We all have been taught about gravity and the world and its confines. I say this.... The only confines we have are in our mind. Let go. Those two words means so much. You may have to work at it at first but tell yourself that you can do it. You can reach the stars and touch them. Your "reality" mind is saying this is impossible. This is normal. But try to get past that by  teaching yourself there is no limit to what you can do when in that "astral" place of meditation. Each of us have certain gifts and we actually lessen ourselves by not using our very spirit, our very essence, to use everything we know and can do to expand ourselves to become one with the universe. How do we do this? The next time you feel like touching the stars. Reach upwards with your mind and do not be afraid to stretch. The only thing you need to fear is yourself and the power of negative thinking.

I hope this gives some of you a little bit of encouragement to keep trying. Comment on this topic if you would like. Bring it to a discussion. That would be good too. I await your comments.

Here is another day or month (I have forgotten how long) that I have been gone since I have written anything in this journal. I am in the middle of writing three novels and I can't seem to come in here and write something in here.....lol. I am pouring myself into work and that isn't anything like me. I am usually looking for the humor in things.... Not anymore. I'm not sure what exactly is happening but it looks as if I am losing friends about as fast as I make new ones. I am sure everybody is busy with their own life but it does bother me as I always have people around me (something I really find I need) and now it seems to be thinning out.

I have been given a proposition from a woman and I do not want to accept her askance. I know it can never work. I also am looking for a very special lady but what I am looking for may be as hard to find as the right numbers to win the $350 million lottery. I 'll probably put my wish list for what I am looking for in a woman later. Just see how many "answers" I may get out here. I do hope people will answer these messages. I am going to put another message in today right behind this one and hope to see somebody say something about it. 

I am going to just take today easy and play games. Do a little bit of fighting,killing,racing, and doing all the things that society says isn't a good thing. lol. Hope all have a good day too.

Well, It has been awhile since I entered anything and thought I better since a good friend was the one who got me started in here. (Thanks Snow).

This is going to be a difficult day for me as I am placed in a position to try to talk with superiors at my work about managers that are over me. My own manager is trying to get rid of me but do it legally. In my work we have "scores". These scores need to be up to a certain standard, but, if they fall down below that standard then it is a reason for termination. I do excellent work and have always had great scores until now. This manager is picking alot of us apart to lower our scores so she can say there is a reason to terminate us. This is not the only issue, there are several. But I have been "elected" to talk to the upper echelon to get this straightened out for the whole of us. **deep sigh** Hope this works....

I haven't been on line much lately due to long hours and not enough time to do much more than check emails.

I am almost to the place in life I need to be. I am going to Colorado to check out a culinary school to take refresher courses. This will allow me to accept that job with the country club that has been asking me to join them.

Well, it is that time already. I need to get my shower and get myself to work. Wish me well. I feel I need it. Blessings and Light to all. Magnus